hey people!

work is fine. abit boring lah.
but sit and money in the pocket haha.
got eye candy. one chinese and one malay.
hehehehe.

my mentor is abit nuts.
he is like nuts.
i'm going crazy just by sitting beside him.
he says "SHWEEEEET" at any random time.
and i will give him the 'are-you-nuts?' look.
told honey about him. honey couldn't stop laughing.
so adorable lah. heee. =)

anyway, met honey yesterday. =)
with hilya and some of his friends.
he is so cute. oh, isn't he always?
aaahhhhhhhhh! i miss him. hais.

honey's friends were like disturbing
us at the food court. hahaha. it was funny.
then we walked around. then eat ice cream at macs.
then they all and hilya left us both alone.
honey walked me home. hehe.
and he was so sweet lah.
cause yesterday was daddy's birthday.
and honey bought my dad a converse shirt.
he surprised me when we reached my block.
haha so cute. =)

i love you baby.
nurul.

i'm gonna start work tomorrow and guess what.
i don't know what to wear! oh dear.
and uncle jamie kept nagging about getting
an office wear. =p
"have you gotten your office wear?" or
"remember to get your office wear,".
ahahaha. funny.

i miss honey. man, what's new. haha.
he asked me to learn this song uh.
so we can play the song and sing together.
haha. he play the drums and i do the guitars.
i'm halfway done uh haha.

okay, fix you - coldplay is stuck in my head.
and just a random outburst. I HATE THE JERK.

i will try to fix you,
nurul.

hey ho!
my mom is pissed at me.
i am pissed at her too.
whatever man.

i am feeling like shit.
honey's birthday is tomorrow!
hehehhheeeeeeee.

oh ya. just now he was at changi beach.
and i was on the way to changi beach.
then like want to meet.
but his parents want to go home cos they
going genting tomorrow.
hais, so yeah. =(
oh ya. then he'll be alone on his
birthday! so poor thing. haha.

okay lah.

sometimes i just dislike my mom alot.
nurul.

heeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
okay, that's too irritating.

let's start again.
HELLO!
ah, that's better.
hahahahahaha. whatever uh eh nurul.

okay, there's this scenario that happened two
days ago.

i am lying in my bed nursing my pain. and my
mom came in and poke me everywhere. i
writhed in pain. my little brother, syahmi
came running to my rescue.

syahmi: ibu don't poke kakak! she's sick!
mommy: *laughs and kept on poking*
syahmi: *shrieks* ibu stop!
mommy: why you care about kakak? she don't
care about you.
syahmi: kakak care!
mommy: she always go out and leave you.
syahmi: kakak wants to go out with friends!
mommy: ye lah. then leave you.
syahmi: kakak never leave me. daddy take
care of me.

hahahahaha. so cute right! i love my little
brother. defend me seh. hee. =)

okay.

my fingertips are holding on to the cracks
in our foundations.
nurul.

hello people.
i feel so sick. yeah.
my fever comes and goes.
so mean. i feel okay then not
okay then okay again. ccb.

oh, i have a question.
how do bulimics do that?
like vomit all the time.
i hate the feeling man.
i woke up in the middle of the night
and then i ran and vomit in the toilet.
i almost scared myself to death at the
amount of vomit.
i was like, "oh god, stop me from
vomitting please,".
hahaha. scary nak mampos uh.
i thought i was going to die cos i
couldn't breathe.

okay uh.

i am flawed if i am free.
nurul.

morning sweet. hee, i like that line. =)

anyway, i got the job! like yeay!
went for an interview. and yeah.
im starting work on monday.
but have to wear office wear.
like what in the world is office wear?
oh my, i'll have colleagues!
hahaha. this is so funny.

didn't surprise honey yesterday.
my mom asked me to go out with her.
grr, so mean. hais.
but i told honey what i intend to do
and he was adorable about it. =p
gosh, i miss honey.
friday is so far away. *sighs*

and don't you think having pumpkin
for a name is cute?
like, morning pumpkin.
or, pumpkin, i gotta tell you sth!
or, um, haha. you get what i mean. haha.

this is the last time i crawl
away on these broken knees.
nurul.

OH FUCK. HOW COULD YOU?

everything makes sense now.
what a jerk. i should have known
that you are too good to be true you
motherfucker.
i don't do revenge, you're lucky.
i'll let go but i hope god makes you
realise what an asshole you are.
well, that is a very very very kind word
to describe your deeds.

anyway, i miss honeyyy.
i'm going to surprise him tomorrow.
hehahahhehhee. =)

i was so stupid. everything was right infront of me. and i chose to ignore them.
nurul.

hello ho hey!
i didn't do anything today.
rotted the whole day.
then i was pissed cos of something uh.
then then then honey asked me out to dinner.
heh, at TM only and got his friends.
but atleast i get to meet him. =)
and he was adorable as always.
then when his friend disturbed him, he goes,
"you want to see green rice fly to your face?"
hahaha. so cute sak. =p

okay. he made my day lah.

one day 'ahaha' slowly floated away.
nurul.

it was fun on the 15th. =)
hilya's birthday. heh.
we went out till late. like, LATE.
the bus was empty lah on the way home.
it was the fun-est at starbucks.
haha. then we had sleepover.
qilah stayed up till the end of the movie.
hilya and i slept halfway. hahaha.
the day was fun lah. lazy to elaborate.

honey's birthday coming. heh.

i miss honey like woahh. =|
nurul.

PEOPLE!

yesterday was like fun lah.
it was qilah's birthday.
i didnt realise how much i miss the
people until yesterday. haha.
we took nice pictures but im like
lazy to upload the photos.
when im free uh ehh. =p

oh man.
the jerk was being an asshole today.
FUCK YOU SIAL.
hais, i feel so angry.
but the most i would do is mutter
vulgarities to myself and then cry
when its too much to handle.
im hopeless. yeah, whatever.

okay, my mom is being a toot.
nurul.

godddd, im so bored.
went to honey's home yesterday.
haha. we messed with the drums and guitar.
he was cute as always lah.
he played a song and we sang together.

i feel like shit today.
throat hurts so bad. fuck uh.
im hungry but cannot eat.
i want to go out but im lazy.

okay.

even strawberry lollipop did not make me feel better.
nurul.

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WORLD!
haha. yesterday was super cute! =)
went to meet him and his friends.
then visit his friend's grandfather's funeral.
then we sweet escape. haha.
we ate and all. everything was so cutelah.
he kept messing my hair, heh.
and he look so adorable when he slept in the
bus. *sighs* heh.
miss him like befugugjksdhuduigvajls uhh haha.

okayyyyy, see youuuuuu!

tell me what i'm suppose to do, im falling for you.
nurul.