um. okay. i wanna say a few things here.
it's whatever i'm feeling at the moment.
so yeah,

i realised one thing. i've been trying to
run away. run away from things. i've been
avoiding my thoughts. it's good but it's
only for the moment. but if i face and
accept it, i will be able to move on. so
that's what i'm gonna do. i just need time.

everyday for the past one week, i will go
out and meet up with friends or do something
like even go to the library with my little
sister to take my mind off things. then
reality hits me hard when i read your email.
it made me realise how badly i miss you. then
something made me read your blog. and, it was
too much for me to take.

i can't stop crying. yeah, i cry. so what people.
everytime i stopped crying, a familiar song
played in my playlist and i will be reminded
of you. then i will quickly try to change the
song. but yeah, i already am reminded. so like
no point. =/

and it's not just songs. sometimes the things
people do. the things you gave. or the places
we went. or even just looking up to the sky
at night and there are stars.
i feel empty.

anyway, here's one song that kept playing
in my mind. it's part of it only. i don't
think many knows this song but yeah,
I never wanted you to leave,
I wanted you to stay here holding me.
I miss you,
I miss your smile.
And I still shed a tear every once in a while.
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow.
My heart won't let you go.
And I need you to know,
I miss you.

people say to love does not mean to have.
now i understand what they mean. =)

anyway, enough of my sad story. heh.
i watched 27 dresses with hilya and nadia.
it is a cute chick flick. =D
oh, and did i tell you that my hair is red? hee.
not red, red. it's dark red. but yeah, red.
i dyed red-brown together with nads at first,
but then i decided to change. :p and i cut my
hair short! i was bored of my long hair.
it was so... um, long. heh.
hilya dyed her hair red too. it's kinda orangey
red but it looks good on her. so yeah, =)

time has got a way of taking back everything you thought you had,
nurul.

p.s. a message to you if you're reading
this post. you know who you are. =)
the BIG SURPRISE was BIG and you wore
the red shoes! and you said MOMENTUM
when it's supposed to be MEMENTO.
:p hahaha. yeah, okay. =)