just as im beggining to accept life,
just as things are about to get better,
just as things are starting to be perfect,
the world crashes down on you
and you are left there, just like that.

im at work now and i feel like shit.
haha. whatever man.

my colleague, nani sensed something wrong
when i came to work today.
she said that im not my cheerful self today
cause i always walk around and see
if anyone got snacks.
so she asked me whats wrong.
then i couldn't help but cry cause i was
still sore from crying yesterday.
then she rubbed my cheek and it only made
me cry harder. haha. whatever lah eh.

met honey yesterday at downtown.
he gave me a square shaped eeyore.
the eeyore is super cute lah. hahaha.
we named him dice cause it's square.
i accompanied him eat at macs then eat bnj.
then we went to the beach.
it was beautiful there.
the wind, fresh.
the skies, blue.
the clouds, white.
the sun, bright.
i want everything that was happening
at the moment to last forever.
no disturbance. no unhappiness.
just peace and serenity.

hais. okay, i'll go off.
i have to return alot of calls.

i'll be loving you forever,
nurul.