went out on christmas. pictures!

helloooooo.

so okay. watched twilight and yes man. =)
despite the twilight hoohaa, i think the
show was okay.
like if you have extra money, then you go watch.
but if not, forget it.

BUT BUT BUT, WATCH "YES MAN". =D
it's one of the best movie i've seen.
the whole cinema laughed from the
start of the movie to the end. =)

okay so yeah, that's about all.

today is rafie's birthday. we celebrate at ECP. haha. pictures!







yesterday pictures. not much. heh.





haha okay! that's all for now. =)

haha. all my classmates are freaking online. and one of them put this as a pm, "C214(my class),
last to sleep wins,". -.-

okay i'll continue my work. i can't do work
without getting distracted. tsk.

heehee. finally i am like blogging. sorry lah. not
consistent. anyway. i have a 15 page proposal
and a whole sketchbook filled with sketches,
pictures and write ups due tomorrow 1pm sharp.
thanks eh cher. babi. and i cant do last minute
touch ups on the proposal tomorrow cause i
have class from 9 to 12. *claps* aaaaaaaaaaand.
the next day, i have 3 design assignments and
another whole sketchbook filled with sketches
due for the same bloody teacher. and that doesn't
include the 8 namecard designs due the same day. so much work. i wanna go back to
secondary school. =(

and you must be thinking, if you know you have
so much work, why the hell are you blogging?
go do your work lah. hello, i am brain dead
okay. i can't think already.

i can't wait to get over all of this. and and im
going malacca this saturday! atleast there's
something to look forward to. =D

heys. it has been a hectic period of time. but i'll just start talking from monday onwards. =)

on monday, celebrated utt's birthday with ariff at LJS. ariff and i made her a card and we got her an oreo cheesecake, her favourite. =)

on tuesday, it was the-last-day-of-exam day. and so, after exam, su, rafie, yan and me explored TP's "haunted" spots. well, it was quite scary as the places are dark. one of the places we explored was TP's design school. there was nothing. we saw a table in design school though. you can draw anything there. so we sat and started drawing. then when it's like late, we went home. i took pictures. i'll upload when im not lazy. =)

and then, yesterday got class chalet. they booked one directly infront of the OCH. haha. so yeah, we all went in the place at around 1 going to 2. but before that, we gave lin a very big surprise because it was her birthday. her reaction very cute lah. anyway, OCH was very dark. some of us, including me, were very scared. haha. but the whole group just keep going up the stairs and we explored the ward rooms. but before we could go up to the rooftop, some of them wanted to go back to the chalet. so we went back. after that, some got drunk, some slept, some just sit around and talk. i slept around 5.

then the next day, woke up at around 11 plus and started getting ready. then me, yan and luqman walked to changi village and ate breakfast there. then we walked back and then rafie, su and amalina came. then we record a song for bashirah because tomorrow is her birthday. =) then we explored the OCH again. but this time is less scarier because we can see where we are going. but it was still scary ah please. the place is very interesting. everywhere i tried to picture how it looks like last time with the hospital beds, nurses, doctors, patients and more. when we reached the level just below the rooftop, we took a group picture. i'll upload when im not lazy. heh. anyway, the view at the top level is beautiful. very serene and peaceful. then tired, we all went down the stairs and out of the OCH. then downhill and back to chalet. then played uno and stuff and i had to go home early cause no one taking care of izza and syahmi. syafiq has his DNT whatever so he goes home late. so yeah, that's pretty much the summary for three days. i shall go eat now.

you'll come back when it's over, don't need to say goodbye.
nurul.

hello. =D
i swear my aunts are so silly. haha.
they were so enthusiastic about watching the
fireworks thingy yesterday, that they booked
a one night stay in marina mandarin hotel.
but atleast we don't have to join the crowds
down there. heh. everybody watched the
fireworks display in the balcony. and since one
of my cousin couldn't make it, his wife used
her 3G phone and he saw the display through
her phone. hehe. cute seh.

the hotel was really awesome lah. i love the
toilet. i took some pictures in the toilet. i'll
post it some other time. =)

just like it's snowing in summertime,
nurul.

it's been a long time since i updated my blog. i have been busy with assignments and projects. and yesterday when i handed in the last piece of assignment, i felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. but i have one more thing to do before i can enjoy
my holiday. exam. luckily its only 2 papers. but on the downside, its not my best subjects. so yeah, studystudystudy. tsk.

god, i was so happy yesterday, i didn't care that i only got like 2 freaking hours of sleep. hee. i slept at 7 plus am okay. and i woke up at like 9 plus. anyway, during art class, my art teacher took su's art piece, bash's, rafie's and mine and showed the pieces to the class. and he said that our pieces, being the best works, were the best reward he could get at the last day of school. YAY!!! he was like, "what the hell are you guys doing in IT man?". haha. then he told us that it's an honour to have worked with artists like us. honestly, i think it's an honour to have worked with a great teacher, artist and friend like him.

hey john, what's your name again?
nurul.

haha. oh my god. im like shocked and i can't stop smiling. haha. it was so sweet lah. im like sick since morning. then this silly person who lives near me came to my house just a few minutes ago with muffins and panadol. haha. so adorable lah. =)

anyway, im liking leona lewis alot. haha, whatever.

you made my day,
nurul.

so yeah, hey. syahmi just got home from the hospital. he is fine now. can't really eat though. i went to school for one hour only yesterday cause i skipped lectures. i was very uneasy during tutorial so i went home straightaway after that. daddy and izza was getting ready to go to the hospital when i reached home so i tagged along. mommy called when we were getting ready and told me that syahmi is in the operation theatre. during the drive to KK hospital, i couldn't stop crying lah. i was like thinking what if syahmi never makes it through the freaking operation. how is life without syahmi. all that stupid shits. then when i reached the hospital, he was sleeping on the hospital bed. he looks so frail and skinny. i smiled. at least he is safe. then he wakes up and started to vomit blood. i kept running to the toilet for more tissue and mommy called the nurse. i couldn't think straight bodoh. it was scary. the doctor didn't want to let him go home but syahmi kept crying and saying that he want to go home. so doctor did final check ups and we went home around 10 plus. yeah, that's all. =)

nurul.

had a family gathering on saturday at my uncle's house. they decided to watch this stupid movie called "klaka rabak" or something like that. it was a comedy. the movie was abit lame but it did cracked all of us up. everyone laughed like they haven't laughed for years. haha.

i was abit irritated at work just now cause a stupid customer ordered a fish maw soup when it isn't even in the menu. actually im not irritated just because of that uh. got alot of things cocked up at work. but fatah was around to enlighten everyone with his jokes. plus, jing jing is back. so yeah, =)

school is supposed to start at 12 tomorrow but thanks to the make up lessons for labour day, it starts at 10. okay, it's not a big deal uh actually.

okay, im tired. i wanna sleep.

i did call you. you didn't answer my call. but it's okay.
nurul.

here's the weird thing that happened today. got this guy passed by me and hayyan. then he asked me what perfume im using. HAHA. i was like WTH. i told him. then he was like thanks, i wanna buy it for my girlfriend. hahaha, retard.

suddenly i crave for starbucks blueberry muffin.

oh and i like how my hair looks today. :D

that's what you get when you let your heart win,
nurul.

hey hey hey. today was a blast. =)

first accion went to sentosa. got other groups also lah. then we all played games and stuff. and then mason called me. he was with susu and the rest uh. he told me everyone will run to a guy and carry him on the count of three. i agreed. but on the count of three, everyone grabbed me and run to the sea. then they throw me in. haha idiot.

then we all washed up and went to vivo city for dinner. everyone bought packed dinner and we ate at the rooftop. then when we all finished eating, got this group of NYP students about 40 plus people started cheering. then the whole of TP students about 600 or 700 of us stood up and face the NYP students. then we started cheering and singing our school song. haha. the passerbys stopped and stared. and the NYP students just stood there defeated but smiling. then the NYP students took pictures of us while we're cheering. hahaha. it was so cool. the whole thing. TP is like fucking united lah. it's like a big group but everyone can cooperate and listen to each other. then got one guy from SP, he followed us through the whole trip. he was like, "woahh. i like your school man,". haha.

i start school at 12 tomorrow. =)

remind me of the reason for existing,
nurul.

im going to tp's camp which starts at 8. but i haven't even packed and here i am blogging. hah. i don't feel like going lahh cause im lazy. anyway, yesterday was adorable lah. heh. farhana was like disturbing,"sorry eh. hari ni nurul aku punye,". hahaha. =)

let's share money and buy a time-stopper,
nurul.

i like disturbing people at work. just now the song built to last by melee played at work and dani asked me what song is that.

dani: what song is this uh?
nurul: built to last.
dani:by who?
nurul: bye bye.

hahahhahahahahahha. get it? should see the look on his face sia. atiqah and me laughed at him like hell.

after work, atiqah followed me meet utt and ariff. then we lepak at open plaza. ariff and me kept disturbing utt then she kept pinching both our cheeks. haha. it was funny. then me and atiqah chilled at starbucks and we got free drinks cause she's dating a guy from there. heh.

accion is going to sentosa! yeay! i missed the stupid jam and hop cause of work. im not gonna miss this one man. susu kept messaging and calling to remind me to take off on saturday. haha.

and i owe my ex tuition teacher a coffee date. sheesh.

you caught me off guard,
nurul.

blahhh. jing jing got transferred to clarke quay. and she'll be back by may. so long sia. work without jing jing is weird cause she always makes me feel better. so yeah, okay.

im like starting work in 15 minutes and im not even out of my house. isn't it great? *claps*

yeah,
nurul.

my backbone hurts like hell. hah. i fell at work just now on my butt. fucking pain sia. i have big butt also like no use. haha. this is like the third time i fell in the kitchen. james and russell were like staring at me not knowing whether to laugh or help me. then i started crying then they like shocked. then james started patting my shoulder to console me and russell start picking up things that i dropped. then atiqah came in and she was like joking and at the same time wiping my tears. haha. so i was like crying and laughing. it was stupid lah.

okay, im sleepy already so night. =)

imh,
nurul.

hey hey hey. went to Tp orientation workshop just now and it was tiring. haha. im like in the same group as suganthi and jessica and daryl and guo jing. heh. the workshop was okay lah. some of the group leaders kept saying "nurul oi," cause they want me to shout "oi," back. they say they can't hear my voice. -.-

anywayyy, my dad got discount for the singapore flyer so my whole family and i went there. it was like woahh. i was abit reluctant and scared at the start though. hah. oh and i can see the airport control tower when the capsule reached it highest point! heh.

okay uh. it's late. night. =)

oh the ugliness of fate,
nurul.

hahah. jamie was like telling me that his birthday is coming.

jamie: eh my birthday coming.
nurul: oh when?
jamie: 1st april.
nurul: oh it's april fool's day!
jamie: yeah.
nurul: did you get me anything for my birthday?
jamie: nope.
nurul: okay then.

hahahahaha. did you get the point? did you? hahaha, neminds. jamie was like busted sia or sth like that. i like disturbing people. it's funny.

anyway, everytime the song 'built to last' plays at my workplace, i can't help but smile. haha. no, i'm not a retard. heh heh heh. =)

i am so tired today. worked from morning till night and it was bloody busy. tsk. haha. butbutbut, tonight was lovely. =)

you look adorable today,
nurul.

hahhahahahhahahhahaha. my brother is irritated cause he wanna use the laptop but im like stalling. neh neh neh neh neh. hahhaa. okay, my brother is talking about bapoks. -.- he said got one bapok adjusted his voice to a girl's voice before talking to him and his friends. hahaha. retard.

oh you know, i like the way daddy looks at mom when she's eating. =)

and and and, i can't wait. heh heh heh. =)

because i want you to.
nurul.

i can't sleep. tsk. and im doing opening tomorrow. =(

oh i can't wait for my payyy. haha. cause hehehehehe. neminds.

try to sleep okay?
nurul.

i woke this person up at 9 a.m. and i now i can't go back to sleep. -.- haha.

i've been feeling like crap so i talked to one of my colleagues. then she tell me all this motivational stories that made me see everything in different perspective. haha. and she was like, "don't think too much nurul. just let things happen and let nature take its course,". haha. okay uh, i do think alot. for nothing.

oh and there's this thing. ohmygod. I CAN'T WAIT! hahaha. yeay yeay yeay!

yay:).gd gd.
nurul.

okay i can't sleep. so here i am.

i feel like im stuck. im not moving forward nor am i looking backwards. im pulled in both directions. and it makes me feel like shit. i can't move forward cause i feel guilty. i don't want to look backwards cause i want to be happy. oh hell. i need some brownies and ice cream. thanks.

on your machine i slur a plea for you to come home. but i know it's too late.
nurul.

heyyy. went to hilya's house and did a cover of a song. hilya was recording it and qilah kept making funny faces. so there are parts which are replaced by laughters instead of singing. -.- thanks qilah. haha.

and heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D aiyah. whatever eh nurul.

"we'll go ice skating one day,".
nurul.

you know. i don't want to get involved in all of this shit actually. but since you gave your piece of mind, why not i do the same? =)

im not gonna take sides. i think all this shit was just a misunderstanding which could be solved in a nicer way. both of them should have talked things out instead of attacking each other at their own blogs.

and please, it's unfair for you to just hear one side of the story and then straitaway judge. well, i've heard my friend's side of the story. but i haven't heard the other side's. so care to fill me in?

i'm sick of all this bitch fits. don't you have better things to do than barging in their argument?

and to my dear friends, both of you should not blame each other. why not meet up and clear this misunderstandings for once? =)

i think i've said what i want. so it's up to both of you to clear this mess which i hope you do. =) and i'm sorry if i hurt any of your feelings.

nurul.

i stumbled upon my 'the afters' cd. haha.
it's been a long time since i listened to
them.

anyway, went to johor with family yesterday.
we watched 'the spiderwick chronicles'.
it's good. got alot of suspense. haha.
go watch people. =D

oh and syahmi likes eisley. HAHA!
so adorable lah.

maybe a greater thing will happen,
nurul.

i think i am pms-ing. i get irritated just by
looking at kiu seng's face. or maybe i just
dislike him alot. fucker. he talks so much.

kiu seng: nurul, your opening very bad you know.
nurul: oh. why?
kiu seng: cause you never eat when the food came out. blahblahblah...
nurul: *interrupts* eh, is just eating only what.
kiu seng: blahblahblah...
nurul: *shows irritated face*

eh sialah. i did everything im supposed
to do except eat. and that is very bad?
i swear my hands are gonna land on his
face someday. he thinks he's the manager
or something. everybody hates that asshole.
haha. okay, i shall shut up.

ahhhh. im going back to work at 5.30. hais.

tears stream down on your face when you lose
something you can't replace.
nurul.

hello. went out with hilya, aqilah and nads
on friday. i thought i just wanna buy a pair
of shoes. but i ended up spending more than
i need. shit. haha. the day was funny.

and apparently hilya and aqilah blogged
about the cat in the toilet incident. -.-
come on mannn. i can't believe you guys. haha.

anyway, i can't wait to start school!
but i'm scared at the same time. yeah,

maybe,
nurul.

oh dear. my uncle just passed away.
i feel weird. like...i don't know.
aiyah. whatever.

hahaha. my baby brother is so retarded.
he wants to go to the toilet and shit.

syahmi: kakak, can i shit?
nurul: no, cannot.
syahmi: huh..why?
nurul: cannot.
syahmi: *whines* please.
nurul: ok go.
syahmi: *runs off*

haha. retard.

oh and my mom is so annoying. i bought and
wore contacts. and she pulled me to my dad
who is washing the dishes in the kitchen.

mommy: ayah, you see your daughter's eyes.
daddy: *turns around and looked at me*
nurul: *smiles*
mommy: *hits me*
nurul: ayah, is it wrong?
mommy: *hits me*
nurul: why are you hitting me? i'm asking ayah
whether it is wrong. so ayah, is it wrong?
mommy: *hits me*
daddy: *turned to look at mom* what's wrong
with you?

haha. irritating sia. oh and then i wore this
colourful necklace when i wanna go out. then
she was like why you wearing that necklace.
i mean, it's a freaking necklace for god's sake.
so petty.

anyway. i feel so..i don't know. i mean, there
are times when i feel happy and stuff. but then
my mood swing comes. i will stare into space
and feel like crap. hais. whatever lah.

could it be that everything goes around by
chance? or only one way that it was always
meant to be?
nurul.

hey. i just got back from watching a midnight
movie with mommy. she asked me out. hehe. =p

we watched LEAP YEARS. it's a great movie.
you people have to watch it. i cried until
i thought i was going crazy. HAHA. whatever.
and i think that 29th february is special.
cause it happens only once every four years.

i am like inspired by the movie. hahaha.
the movie kept me wondering. i have been
wondering ever since the movie ended. it's
like...um, i don't know. i just wonder..

it is not in the stars that holds our destiny
but in ourselves - william shakespeare.

okay. i shall just shut up.

there's gotta be a million reasons why it's true,
nurul.

alot happened at work today.
everything was stupidly funny.

first got this famous chinese actor went
into the restaurant. then jing jing became
all giggly. haha. okay fine. he was cute.
then she asked me to follow her take picture
with him which i did. she was so happy. haha.

then while i was doing my work, atiqah kept
tickling my butt. haha. idiot.

and james (the one who makes lemon and salt
drink) kept trying to scare me. haha. it
didn't work. and when i asked him to watch
out, he said i'll be waiting. hahaha.
retarded.

there are more stupid things that happened
but i'm lazy to explain. but i felt like
shit the whole time. yeah, whatever.

you rest your tiny head on your pillow,
nurul.

hellooooo.

it was funny at work just now.
while i was checking the restaurant's
setting, my colleague used the blender
to make smoothie or something.
then finally he came out of the kitchen
with two glasses of ice blended drink
looking so happy. haha. he gave one to me
and asked me to try. so i tried and i got
the shock of my life. okay, i am exaggarating.
but the drink tasted like...i don't know. =p

he puts in lemon and salt in the drink!
what do you expect? haha. retarded.

oh and there's this one thing. shitshitshit.
i swear i don't know what's wrong with me.

i wanna sleep forever. please.
nurul.

i couldn't sleep yesterday so i called hilya
at 3am. haha. we talked till 6.30am. =P

oh, it's either hilya's a psychic or she just
knows me well. haha. she knew who my
previous post was meant for before i even
told her. haha, okay.

you know i'll let you in. oh, kelsey.
nurul.

hellooooo.

okay, um.
i don't know what you're trying to show me.
and i am abit scared cause i don't know what
lies ahead. but i just hope it's for the best.

~
Found myself today.
Oh, I found myself and ran away.
Something pulled me back.
Voice of reason I forgot I had.
All I know is you're not here to say,
What you always used to say.
But it's written in the sky tonight.

So I won't give up.
No, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems life turns around.
And I will be strong,
Even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the
dark I'll still believe.
Someone's watching over me.

haha. it's one of the songs that kept
playing at my workplace.
so it's stuck in my head. =D

i won't be afraid to follow everywhere it's taking me,
nurul.

heyyy. i accidentally woke up and now i
can't go back to sleep.
IT'S 5 PLUS IN THE MORNING FOR GOD'S SAKE.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME? hahaha. okay.
aiyah, i don't have proper sleep timings
nowadays. not that i don't want to sleep
properly. i just can't. sometimes now is
the time i go to sleep. so yeah,

anyway, yesterday i was so bored i decided
to iron my clothes in the closet but i got
lazy. so i learned songs and watched movies
online! i didn't know it was that fun! heh.
okay, i need to get a life.

holy mother of cow. there's this man under
my block. he kept clapping his hands so
loud. he looks cuckoo.

oh! i got a job babyyy. just like that. =)
i asked yesterday and i'm starting work at
4pm today. i won't tell where it is. but
it's at a restaurant lah. what? come on.
what were you expecting? hahah.

okay. mommy's waking up any minute now. i
gotta pretend to be asleep.

sometimes everything's gonna fall right into place,
nurul.

went to bugis cause atiqah wanna surprise
her boyfriend. and then we walk around and
then daddy got his bad mood so i had to go
home. whatever. i didn't even have time to
look for job. haha.

anyway, i'm liking this song ALOT.


if the heart is always searching, can you ever find a home?
nurul.

i'm displeased. i wanna punch any stranger
that comes in the way. i know my reason of
being peeved is stupid but i can't help it.
hilya, nadia and jamie will roll their eyes
if i tell them why i'm feeling this way. heh.
i'm not really mad, mind you. it's just yeah,
heh. whatever nurul.

anyway, i was bored so i asked qilah whether
i sounded dumb at my previous post. haha.
and the conversation was something like this,

nurul: do i sound stupid at my last post?
qilah: no you don't.
nurul: really?
qilah: yeah. you sounded like nurul.

-.- thanks qilah. that was so enlightening.
haha.

oh shit. jonas brothers are on mtv now. i
didn't know they're adorable. i like the lead
singer and the curly haired one. =)

oh, i sorta miss my long hair. okay,

i want to know how it feels like to wear a real
victorian dress.
nurul.

p.s. hilya, you can take the swings. i changed
my mind. i want the boat in the lake. heh.
okay, i should just keep quiet.

um. okay. i wanna say a few things here.
it's whatever i'm feeling at the moment.
so yeah,

i realised one thing. i've been trying to
run away. run away from things. i've been
avoiding my thoughts. it's good but it's
only for the moment. but if i face and
accept it, i will be able to move on. so
that's what i'm gonna do. i just need time.

everyday for the past one week, i will go
out and meet up with friends or do something
like even go to the library with my little
sister to take my mind off things. then
reality hits me hard when i read your email.
it made me realise how badly i miss you. then
something made me read your blog. and, it was
too much for me to take.

i can't stop crying. yeah, i cry. so what people.
everytime i stopped crying, a familiar song
played in my playlist and i will be reminded
of you. then i will quickly try to change the
song. but yeah, i already am reminded. so like
no point. =/

and it's not just songs. sometimes the things
people do. the things you gave. or the places
we went. or even just looking up to the sky
at night and there are stars.
i feel empty.

anyway, here's one song that kept playing
in my mind. it's part of it only. i don't
think many knows this song but yeah,
I never wanted you to leave,
I wanted you to stay here holding me.
I miss you,
I miss your smile.
And I still shed a tear every once in a while.
And even though it's different now,
You're still here somehow.
My heart won't let you go.
And I need you to know,
I miss you.

people say to love does not mean to have.
now i understand what they mean. =)

anyway, enough of my sad story. heh.
i watched 27 dresses with hilya and nadia.
it is a cute chick flick. =D
oh, and did i tell you that my hair is red? hee.
not red, red. it's dark red. but yeah, red.
i dyed red-brown together with nads at first,
but then i decided to change. :p and i cut my
hair short! i was bored of my long hair.
it was so... um, long. heh.
hilya dyed her hair red too. it's kinda orangey
red but it looks good on her. so yeah, =)

time has got a way of taking back everything you thought you had,
nurul.

p.s. a message to you if you're reading
this post. you know who you are. =)
the BIG SURPRISE was BIG and you wore
the red shoes! and you said MOMENTUM
when it's supposed to be MEMENTO.
:p hahaha. yeah, okay. =)

maybe we're trying, trying too hard.
maybe we're torn apart.
maybe the timing, is beating our hearts.
we're empty.




i want to fill this new frame but it's empty,
nurul.

hahahahaha. it's been so long since i laughed
like mad. hilya called my extension number
and asked me to type SUWANDI and search. she
told me to look at number three and i found......

SUWANDI KOJODJOJO.
hahaha. i feel mean laughing at the person's
name but yeah,

but it's not so bad, you're only the best i ever had.
nurul.

oh dear. the building next to where i'm working
was on fire. but not the whole building lah.
just the first floor. it was scary. there were
small explosions. glasses flew out. then got fire
engine. yeah.

anyway, me and hilya walked around PS.
aaaaand SASA offered a make-over. hahaha.
retarded. we'll come by after work.

calls come in non-stop. so bloody irritating.
i can't stand it anymore. but it's okay, i'll
leave end of this week. suffer awhile more only.
i can't wait to get out of here. 4 more days.

i tried to take a picture of love;
didn't think i'd miss you that much,
nurul.

SLOW DANCE.

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

i like that poem.
nurul.

who the hell do you think you are to
hurt my family's feelings just like that?
all the while i've respected you as
someone wise and knowledgable.

and please lah ehh. i know what i want.
you don't tell me that i don't know because
i know. and you don't tell mommy what to do.
she freaking knows what she is doing. and
how dare you put my brother down just like
that. and you know what? i don't give a damn
about the expensive bag you gave me. your
gifts are nothing compared to the support i
received from my uncle. that was what i need.

and my dearest aunt and uncle. please don't
accuse each other. it is so wrong to accuse
without evidence. what happened to trust?

hais. please lah people. can you guys think
first before saying anything that has no base.
don't just jump to stupid conclusions.

okay. life's been a rollercoaster ride.
alot has been happening. but my family
is always there for me. my relationship
problems and what i wrote are just a small
part of everything.

i love you mommy.
i love you daddy.
i love you syafiq.
i love you izza.
i love you syahmi.
everything will be fine, i promise.

i swear i will prove you wrong.
nurul.

i am so tired.. haha. woke up at 7.
got ready and went to SP and then TP
cos my mom wanna find out more about
the courses. so yeah, then went to her
friend's wedding. then now im getting
ready to go my uncle's condo. i wanna
swim. so bloody long never swim.

yeah, okay.

tatata.
nurul.

oh my god. peanut buttercups are so cute.
one of my colleagues just came back from
i don't know where and then brought us all
peanut buttercups and chocolate bars. =)

oh no. results are in a few hours time.
im scared. my head wanna burst. my stomach
is upset. i consoled it but to no avail. -.-
aaaaahhhhhh. im scared. i've practically
bitten off all my bloody fingernails. i
have none left. god.

4 and a half hour to go,
nurul.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh. sial.

stupid customer. im just advising you about
the late payment fine. and then you said
its useless. okay, fine then. useless indeed.
then if you get the bloody fine, you all
scold us. you say we eat your money.
WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? TELL ME. idiot.

you want to complain is it? HAH. complain
lah. so many people write in complains,
but nothing happens. =D because we are here
to freaking help. if someone asks for help
but that person is retarded like you, would
you like to help? the fucking answer would
be NO, you cunt.

you are just wasting your time asshole.
you are just wasting your time.
and that makes me happy.

whatever lah ehh. you willing to pay the fine, go ahead. =)
nurul.

MORNING EVERYONE!

i just reached my workplace when im supposed
to be seated on my desk by 8.30a.m. haha.
i was late due to the train service. -.-
there was no train from pasir ris to tanah
merah. so i had to take a shuttle bus from
tampines to tanah merah and then take a train
to my work place. yeahhh.

anyway, i made friends with this chinese girl.
i didn't get her name though. we talked till
so many buses came but we cannot board any.
it was crowded and everyone was pushing.
then finally one bus came and everyone started
pushing again. she pulled me with her but we
got separated. oh well. so i took the next bus.
people were cursing and showing their unhappy
faces. come on man. its not like everyday this
happens. so just enjoy it while you can. haha!

will you stay awake for me?
nurul.

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

alahai. the stupid song is stuck in my head.
i feel weird. i've been feeling weird since
um, maybe a few weeks already. i'm not happy.
i do laugh myself silly. but i don't feel
genuinely happy. but i'm not sad either.
okay, maybe i am. a little. actually no.
um, i don't know. my heart feels heavy.
i think i accidentally left stones inside or
something. -.-

i just feel weird lah ehh.

your whispers are priceless,
nurul.

sup people. hahaha.

i am so bored i can die.
anyway, i just finished reading 'for
one more day' by mitch albom again.
it's a good book. i think everyone
should read it atleast once. =)

perdonare.
it means forgive.
first of all, forgive yourself.
only then will you be able to forgive others.
and you will be able to move on and be happy.

it is raining,
nurul.

heeheehee. =)

My team leader treat me and my mentor to pizza
hut during lunch. they both forced to eat like
mad. grr. then my team leader saw me struggling
with one more pizza and two drumsticks. so he
asked me to cut my pizza slice in half and give
it him. hahaha. i'm so full, i can don't eat
for one whole week!
eh, okay no. =p

hais. mommy talked to me in the morning about
stuffs. it sorta made me mad because i could
not accept that fact. it's unlike me to get
mad lah. but i do tend to get pissed easily
nowadays. and most of the time when i get mad,
i cry. pfffft. so i left the house crying.
but i stopped when i start to see people. haha.

okay uh neminds.

sometimes i wonder why,
nurul.

HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. HAHA.

okay, this is so weird.
i came to work with a red shirt from
giordano and black skinnies.
and then, i saw hilya...

she is wearing the exact same thing. -.-

the skinnies same brand some more.
*slaps forehead* hahaha.
then the people there like disturb us.
especially my mentor, "you guys rehearsing
for chinese new year celebration uh?"
i feel like strangling him sia. haha.

okay.

smile,
nurul.

i love you more than you'll ever know.

haha. the song blind by lifehouse is
stuck in my head. thanks to honey uh. =p

oh, happy new year people! =)
yesterday, new year's eve, went jamming
cause like so long never jam.
BUT it sucked. EVERYTHING. attitude sia.
ahh well, you can never please everyone.

but at least my mom let me countdown at
the beach with honey. =)
we brought our baby photos.
he brought speakers and i brought our dice.
it was beautiful, everything.
my brother joined us here and there cause
he couldn't find his friends.
downtown was too crowded. so yeah,
he so poor thing lah.

then at 2, we decided to go home.
honey's parents fetched him.
my brother and i went home ourselves.
HAHA. no bus, no mrt.
then we called daddy.
he was at yishun so he asked us to
take a cab home. lucky we have money.

yeah, that's about it.

a part of me died when i let you go,
nurul.