I'll be loving you forever.
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never.
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart.
I would love you still, forever.
You are the sun.
You are my life.
And you're the last thing on my mind before
I go to sleep at night.
You're always round when I'm in need.
When troubles on my mind you put my soul
at ease.
There is no one in this world, who can
love me like you do.
That is the reason that I wanna spend
forever with you.
I'll be loving you forever.
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never.
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart.
I would love you still, forever.
We've had our fun.
And we've made mistakes.
But who'd have guessed along that road we'd
learn to give and take.
It's so much more than i could have dreamed.
Cause you make loving you so easy for me.
There is no one in this world, who can
love me like you do.
That is the reason that I wanna spend
forever with you.
I'll be loving you forever.
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never.
Even if you took my heart.
And tore it apart.
I would love you still, forever.
And girl I pray you leave me never.
Cause this is the world where lovers often
go astray.
But if we love each other we won't go that
way.
So put your doubts aside.
Do what it takes to make it right.
I love you forever no one can tear us
apart.
I'll be loving you forever.
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never.
Even if you took my heart.
And tore it apart.
I would love you still, forever.
the song is forever - westlife.
i like the lyrics. =)
aishite imasu.
nurul.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
WHAT IS LOVE?
*Love is Accepting.
Acceptance is having no particular desire to
change someone.
Who they are is perfectly fine with you.
You pose no condition on whether you will
love them or not.
*Love is Appreciating.
Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance.
Its when your focus is on what you like
about another.
We look at them and feel this sweeping
appreciation for who they are, their
joy, their insights, their humor,
their companionship, etc.
*Love is Wanting Another to Feel Good.
We want those we love to be happy, safe,
healthy, and fulfilled.
We want them to feel good physically,
mentally and emotionally.
WHAT YOU CAN DO TO IMPROVE YOUR RELATIONSHIP.
-Talk with your partner openly and honestly.
-Don't sacrifice yourself for the
relationship.
-Take responsibility for your feelings.
-Know you can only change yourself.
-Be yourself always.
-Know your intentions behind your words.
-Communicate your wants and needs to your
partner.
-Accept them as they are.
-Let go of absolute value judgements.
-Drop your expectations of how they
"should" be.
-Listen with your whole body, mind and soul.
-Express your appreciation and gratitude
openly and often.
-Examine your beliefs about love
relationships.
-Use humor to defuse difficult situations.
-Examine your desire to control your
partner.
-Have a dialogue about your beliefs.
Love is a learned skill. Its not something
that comes from hormones or emotion
particularly. Learn good communication
skills which you should use to
develop trust and intensify connection.
The more you can communicate the less
depressed you will be because you will
feel known and understood.
There are always core differences between
two people no matter how good or close you are.
And even if the relationship is going right,
those differences would somehow surface.
The issue then is to identify the differences
and negotiate them so that they don't distance
you or kill the relationship.
You do that by understanding where the other
person is coming from, who that person is,
and by being able to represent yourself.
When the differences are known, you must be
able to negotiate and compromise on them
until you find a common ground that works for both.
Focus on the other person rather than focus
on what you are getting and how you are
being treated. Read your partner's need.
What does this person really need for
his/her own well-being?
This is a very tough skill for people to
learn in our narcissistic culture.
Of course you don't lose yourself in the
process. You make sure you're also doing
enough self-care.
Help someone else. Depression keeps people
so focused on themselves they don't get
outside themselves enough to be able to
learn to love. The more you can focus on
others and learn to respond and meet their
needs, the better you are going to do in love.
Develop the ability to accommodate
simultaneous reality. The loved one's reality
is as important as your own. You need to be
as aware of it as of your own. What are they
really saying? What are they really needing?
Depressed people think the only reality is their
own depressed reality. Sensitivity to rejection
is a cardinal feature of depression.
As a consequence of low self-esteem, every
relationship blip like arguements is interpreted
far too personally as evidence of inadequacy.
Quick to feel rejected by a partner, you then
believe it is the treatment you fundamentally
deserve. But the rejection really originates in
you, and the feelings of inadequacy are the
depression speaking.
Recognize that the internal voice is strong but it's not real.
Talk back to it. "I'm not really being rejected,
this isn't really evidence of inadequacy.
I made a mistake." Or "this isn't about me,
this is something I just didn't know how to do
and now I'll learn." When you reframe the
situation to something more adequate, you can
act again in an effective way and you can
find and keep the love that you need.
okay, i know you guys may think i'm nuts or
something because i posted all these. But i
think this post would really help alot of
couples out there.
i want to watch the sunrise with you,
nurul.
*Love is Accepting.
Acceptance is having no particular desire to
change someone.
Who they are is perfectly fine with you.
You pose no condition on whether you will
love them or not.
*Love is Appreciating.
Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance.
Its when your focus is on what you like
about another.
We look at them and feel this sweeping
appreciation for who they are, their
joy, their insights, their humor,
their companionship, etc.
*Love is Wanting Another to Feel Good.
We want those we love to be happy, safe,
healthy, and fulfilled.
We want them to feel good physically,
mentally and emotionally.
WHAT YOU CAN DO TO IMPROVE YOUR RELATIONSHIP.
-Talk with your partner openly and honestly.
-Don't sacrifice yourself for the
relationship.
-Take responsibility for your feelings.
-Know you can only change yourself.
-Be yourself always.
-Know your intentions behind your words.
-Communicate your wants and needs to your
partner.
-Accept them as they are.
-Let go of absolute value judgements.
-Drop your expectations of how they
"should" be.
-Listen with your whole body, mind and soul.
-Express your appreciation and gratitude
openly and often.
-Examine your beliefs about love
relationships.
-Use humor to defuse difficult situations.
-Examine your desire to control your
partner.
-Have a dialogue about your beliefs.
Love is a learned skill. Its not something
that comes from hormones or emotion
particularly. Learn good communication
skills which you should use to
develop trust and intensify connection.
The more you can communicate the less
depressed you will be because you will
feel known and understood.
There are always core differences between
two people no matter how good or close you are.
And even if the relationship is going right,
those differences would somehow surface.
The issue then is to identify the differences
and negotiate them so that they don't distance
you or kill the relationship.
You do that by understanding where the other
person is coming from, who that person is,
and by being able to represent yourself.
When the differences are known, you must be
able to negotiate and compromise on them
until you find a common ground that works for both.
Focus on the other person rather than focus
on what you are getting and how you are
being treated. Read your partner's need.
What does this person really need for
his/her own well-being?
This is a very tough skill for people to
learn in our narcissistic culture.
Of course you don't lose yourself in the
process. You make sure you're also doing
enough self-care.
Help someone else. Depression keeps people
so focused on themselves they don't get
outside themselves enough to be able to
learn to love. The more you can focus on
others and learn to respond and meet their
needs, the better you are going to do in love.
Develop the ability to accommodate
simultaneous reality. The loved one's reality
is as important as your own. You need to be
as aware of it as of your own. What are they
really saying? What are they really needing?
Depressed people think the only reality is their
own depressed reality. Sensitivity to rejection
is a cardinal feature of depression.
As a consequence of low self-esteem, every
relationship blip like arguements is interpreted
far too personally as evidence of inadequacy.
Quick to feel rejected by a partner, you then
believe it is the treatment you fundamentally
deserve. But the rejection really originates in
you, and the feelings of inadequacy are the
depression speaking.
Recognize that the internal voice is strong but it's not real.
Talk back to it. "I'm not really being rejected,
this isn't really evidence of inadequacy.
I made a mistake." Or "this isn't about me,
this is something I just didn't know how to do
and now I'll learn." When you reframe the
situation to something more adequate, you can
act again in an effective way and you can
find and keep the love that you need.
okay, i know you guys may think i'm nuts or
something because i posted all these. But i
think this post would really help alot of
couples out there.
i want to watch the sunrise with you,
nurul.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
i'm sleeeeepy. and hungry. and cold.
cause i'm sitting at mr sheker's sit and
there's two aircon blasting their wind at me.
HAHA. okay.
i want to watch PS. I LOVE YOU.
it's coming out to the cinema soon.
i read the book and i cried like mad.
it's a very good book. but i dont know
whether the movie is going to be just as good.
lunch is at 12.30. -.- so looooooooooong.
kay uh bye.
yesterday's pretzels is as hard as stone.
nurul.
cause i'm sitting at mr sheker's sit and
there's two aircon blasting their wind at me.
HAHA. okay.
i want to watch PS. I LOVE YOU.
it's coming out to the cinema soon.
i read the book and i cried like mad.
it's a very good book. but i dont know
whether the movie is going to be just as good.
lunch is at 12.30. -.- so looooooooooong.
kay uh bye.
yesterday's pretzels is as hard as stone.
nurul.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
just as im beggining to accept life,
just as things are about to get better,
just as things are starting to be perfect,
the world crashes down on you
and you are left there, just like that.
im at work now and i feel like shit.
haha. whatever man.
my colleague, nani sensed something wrong
when i came to work today.
she said that im not my cheerful self today
cause i always walk around and see
if anyone got snacks.
so she asked me whats wrong.
then i couldn't help but cry cause i was
still sore from crying yesterday.
then she rubbed my cheek and it only made
me cry harder. haha. whatever lah eh.
met honey yesterday at downtown.
he gave me a square shaped eeyore.
the eeyore is super cute lah. hahaha.
we named him dice cause it's square.
i accompanied him eat at macs then eat bnj.
then we went to the beach.
it was beautiful there.
the wind, fresh.
the skies, blue.
the clouds, white.
the sun, bright.
i want everything that was happening
at the moment to last forever.
no disturbance. no unhappiness.
just peace and serenity.
hais. okay, i'll go off.
i have to return alot of calls.
i'll be loving you forever,
nurul.
just as things are about to get better,
just as things are starting to be perfect,
the world crashes down on you
and you are left there, just like that.
im at work now and i feel like shit.
haha. whatever man.
my colleague, nani sensed something wrong
when i came to work today.
she said that im not my cheerful self today
cause i always walk around and see
if anyone got snacks.
so she asked me whats wrong.
then i couldn't help but cry cause i was
still sore from crying yesterday.
then she rubbed my cheek and it only made
me cry harder. haha. whatever lah eh.
met honey yesterday at downtown.
he gave me a square shaped eeyore.
the eeyore is super cute lah. hahaha.
we named him dice cause it's square.
i accompanied him eat at macs then eat bnj.
then we went to the beach.
it was beautiful there.
the wind, fresh.
the skies, blue.
the clouds, white.
the sun, bright.
i want everything that was happening
at the moment to last forever.
no disturbance. no unhappiness.
just peace and serenity.
hais. okay, i'll go off.
i have to return alot of calls.
i'll be loving you forever,
nurul.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
i've been dreaming of a true love's kiss.
heehee. a song lyric from enchanted.
it's a cute movie. watch it with THE ONE.
anyway, i feel like shit.
honey is mad at me. i understand why.
hais. i wish i could turn back time.
oh no, better still.
i wish i never knew the fucking jerk.
then my life wouldn't be so messed up.
i want to die.
i love you. i really do.
nurul.
heehee. a song lyric from enchanted.
it's a cute movie. watch it with THE ONE.
anyway, i feel like shit.
honey is mad at me. i understand why.
hais. i wish i could turn back time.
oh no, better still.
i wish i never knew the fucking jerk.
then my life wouldn't be so messed up.
i want to die.
i love you. i really do.
nurul.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
hey people!
work is fine. abit boring lah.
but sit and money in the pocket haha.
got eye candy. one chinese and one malay.
hehehehe.
my mentor is abit nuts.
he is like nuts.
i'm going crazy just by sitting beside him.
he says "SHWEEEEET" at any random time.
and i will give him the 'are-you-nuts?' look.
told honey about him. honey couldn't stop laughing.
so adorable lah. heee. =)
anyway, met honey yesterday. =)
with hilya and some of his friends.
he is so cute. oh, isn't he always?
aaahhhhhhhhh! i miss him. hais.
honey's friends were like disturbing
us at the food court. hahaha. it was funny.
then we walked around. then eat ice cream at macs.
then they all and hilya left us both alone.
honey walked me home. hehe.
and he was so sweet lah.
cause yesterday was daddy's birthday.
and honey bought my dad a converse shirt.
he surprised me when we reached my block.
haha so cute. =)
i love you baby.
nurul.
work is fine. abit boring lah.
but sit and money in the pocket haha.
got eye candy. one chinese and one malay.
hehehehe.
my mentor is abit nuts.
he is like nuts.
i'm going crazy just by sitting beside him.
he says "SHWEEEEET" at any random time.
and i will give him the 'are-you-nuts?' look.
told honey about him. honey couldn't stop laughing.
so adorable lah. heee. =)
anyway, met honey yesterday. =)
with hilya and some of his friends.
he is so cute. oh, isn't he always?
aaahhhhhhhhh! i miss him. hais.
honey's friends were like disturbing
us at the food court. hahaha. it was funny.
then we walked around. then eat ice cream at macs.
then they all and hilya left us both alone.
honey walked me home. hehe.
and he was so sweet lah.
cause yesterday was daddy's birthday.
and honey bought my dad a converse shirt.
he surprised me when we reached my block.
haha so cute. =)
i love you baby.
nurul.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
i'm gonna start work tomorrow and guess what.
i don't know what to wear! oh dear.
and uncle jamie kept nagging about getting
an office wear. =p
"have you gotten your office wear?" or
"remember to get your office wear,".
ahahaha. funny.
i miss honey. man, what's new. haha.
he asked me to learn this song uh.
so we can play the song and sing together.
haha. he play the drums and i do the guitars.
i'm halfway done uh haha.
okay, fix you - coldplay is stuck in my head.
and just a random outburst. I HATE THE JERK.
i will try to fix you,
nurul.
i don't know what to wear! oh dear.
and uncle jamie kept nagging about getting
an office wear. =p
"have you gotten your office wear?" or
"remember to get your office wear,".
ahahaha. funny.
i miss honey. man, what's new. haha.
he asked me to learn this song uh.
so we can play the song and sing together.
haha. he play the drums and i do the guitars.
i'm halfway done uh haha.
okay, fix you - coldplay is stuck in my head.
and just a random outburst. I HATE THE JERK.
i will try to fix you,
nurul.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
hey ho!
my mom is pissed at me.
i am pissed at her too.
whatever man.
i am feeling like shit.
honey's birthday is tomorrow!
hehehhheeeeeeee.
oh ya. just now he was at changi beach.
and i was on the way to changi beach.
then like want to meet.
but his parents want to go home cos they
going genting tomorrow.
hais, so yeah. =(
oh ya. then he'll be alone on his
birthday! so poor thing. haha.
okay lah.
sometimes i just dislike my mom alot.
nurul.
my mom is pissed at me.
i am pissed at her too.
whatever man.
i am feeling like shit.
honey's birthday is tomorrow!
hehehhheeeeeeee.
oh ya. just now he was at changi beach.
and i was on the way to changi beach.
then like want to meet.
but his parents want to go home cos they
going genting tomorrow.
hais, so yeah. =(
oh ya. then he'll be alone on his
birthday! so poor thing. haha.
okay lah.
sometimes i just dislike my mom alot.
nurul.
Friday, November 23, 2007
heeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
okay, that's too irritating.
let's start again.
HELLO!
ah, that's better.
hahahahahaha. whatever uh eh nurul.
okay, there's this scenario that happened two
days ago.
i am lying in my bed nursing my pain. and my
mom came in and poke me everywhere. i
writhed in pain. my little brother, syahmi
came running to my rescue.
syahmi: ibu don't poke kakak! she's sick!
mommy: *laughs and kept on poking*
syahmi: *shrieks* ibu stop!
mommy: why you care about kakak? she don't
care about you.
syahmi: kakak care!
mommy: she always go out and leave you.
syahmi: kakak wants to go out with friends!
mommy: ye lah. then leave you.
syahmi: kakak never leave me. daddy take
care of me.
hahahahaha. so cute right! i love my little
brother. defend me seh. hee. =)
okay.
my fingertips are holding on to the cracks
in our foundations.
nurul.
okay, that's too irritating.
let's start again.
HELLO!
ah, that's better.
hahahahahaha. whatever uh eh nurul.
okay, there's this scenario that happened two
days ago.
i am lying in my bed nursing my pain. and my
mom came in and poke me everywhere. i
writhed in pain. my little brother, syahmi
came running to my rescue.
syahmi: ibu don't poke kakak! she's sick!
mommy: *laughs and kept on poking*
syahmi: *shrieks* ibu stop!
mommy: why you care about kakak? she don't
care about you.
syahmi: kakak care!
mommy: she always go out and leave you.
syahmi: kakak wants to go out with friends!
mommy: ye lah. then leave you.
syahmi: kakak never leave me. daddy take
care of me.
hahahahaha. so cute right! i love my little
brother. defend me seh. hee. =)
okay.
my fingertips are holding on to the cracks
in our foundations.
nurul.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
hello people.
i feel so sick. yeah.
my fever comes and goes.
so mean. i feel okay then not
okay then okay again. ccb.
oh, i have a question.
how do bulimics do that?
like vomit all the time.
i hate the feeling man.
i woke up in the middle of the night
and then i ran and vomit in the toilet.
i almost scared myself to death at the
amount of vomit.
i was like, "oh god, stop me from
vomitting please,".
hahaha. scary nak mampos uh.
i thought i was going to die cos i
couldn't breathe.
okay uh.
i am flawed if i am free.
nurul.
i feel so sick. yeah.
my fever comes and goes.
so mean. i feel okay then not
okay then okay again. ccb.
oh, i have a question.
how do bulimics do that?
like vomit all the time.
i hate the feeling man.
i woke up in the middle of the night
and then i ran and vomit in the toilet.
i almost scared myself to death at the
amount of vomit.
i was like, "oh god, stop me from
vomitting please,".
hahaha. scary nak mampos uh.
i thought i was going to die cos i
couldn't breathe.
okay uh.
i am flawed if i am free.
nurul.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
morning sweet. hee, i like that line. =)
anyway, i got the job! like yeay!
went for an interview. and yeah.
im starting work on monday.
but have to wear office wear.
like what in the world is office wear?
oh my, i'll have colleagues!
hahaha. this is so funny.
didn't surprise honey yesterday.
my mom asked me to go out with her.
grr, so mean. hais.
but i told honey what i intend to do
and he was adorable about it. =p
gosh, i miss honey.
friday is so far away. *sighs*
and don't you think having pumpkin
for a name is cute?
like, morning pumpkin.
or, pumpkin, i gotta tell you sth!
or, um, haha. you get what i mean. haha.
this is the last time i crawl
away on these broken knees.
nurul.
anyway, i got the job! like yeay!
went for an interview. and yeah.
im starting work on monday.
but have to wear office wear.
like what in the world is office wear?
oh my, i'll have colleagues!
hahaha. this is so funny.
didn't surprise honey yesterday.
my mom asked me to go out with her.
grr, so mean. hais.
but i told honey what i intend to do
and he was adorable about it. =p
gosh, i miss honey.
friday is so far away. *sighs*
and don't you think having pumpkin
for a name is cute?
like, morning pumpkin.
or, pumpkin, i gotta tell you sth!
or, um, haha. you get what i mean. haha.
this is the last time i crawl
away on these broken knees.
nurul.
Monday, November 19, 2007
OH FUCK. HOW COULD YOU?
everything makes sense now.
what a jerk. i should have known
that you are too good to be true you
motherfucker.
i don't do revenge, you're lucky.
i'll let go but i hope god makes you
realise what an asshole you are.
well, that is a very very very kind word
to describe your deeds.
anyway, i miss honeyyy.
i'm going to surprise him tomorrow.
hehahahhehhee. =)
i was so stupid. everything was right infront of me. and i chose to ignore them.
nurul.
everything makes sense now.
what a jerk. i should have known
that you are too good to be true you
motherfucker.
i don't do revenge, you're lucky.
i'll let go but i hope god makes you
realise what an asshole you are.
well, that is a very very very kind word
to describe your deeds.
anyway, i miss honeyyy.
i'm going to surprise him tomorrow.
hehahahhehhee. =)
i was so stupid. everything was right infront of me. and i chose to ignore them.
nurul.
hello ho hey!
i didn't do anything today.
rotted the whole day.
then i was pissed cos of something uh.
then then then honey asked me out to dinner.
heh, at TM only and got his friends.
but atleast i get to meet him. =)
and he was adorable as always.
then when his friend disturbed him, he goes,
"you want to see green rice fly to your face?"
hahaha. so cute sak. =p
okay. he made my day lah.
one day 'ahaha' slowly floated away.
nurul.
i didn't do anything today.
rotted the whole day.
then i was pissed cos of something uh.
then then then honey asked me out to dinner.
heh, at TM only and got his friends.
but atleast i get to meet him. =)
and he was adorable as always.
then when his friend disturbed him, he goes,
"you want to see green rice fly to your face?"
hahaha. so cute sak. =p
okay. he made my day lah.
one day 'ahaha' slowly floated away.
nurul.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
it was fun on the 15th. =)
hilya's birthday. heh.
we went out till late. like, LATE.
the bus was empty lah on the way home.
it was the fun-est at starbucks.
haha. then we had sleepover.
qilah stayed up till the end of the movie.
hilya and i slept halfway. hahaha.
the day was fun lah. lazy to elaborate.
honey's birthday coming. heh.
i miss honey like woahh. =|
nurul.
hilya's birthday. heh.
we went out till late. like, LATE.
the bus was empty lah on the way home.
it was the fun-est at starbucks.
haha. then we had sleepover.
qilah stayed up till the end of the movie.
hilya and i slept halfway. hahaha.
the day was fun lah. lazy to elaborate.
honey's birthday coming. heh.
i miss honey like woahh. =|
nurul.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
PEOPLE!
yesterday was like fun lah.
it was qilah's birthday.
i didnt realise how much i miss the
people until yesterday. haha.
we took nice pictures but im like
lazy to upload the photos.
when im free uh ehh. =p
oh man.
the jerk was being an asshole today.
FUCK YOU SIAL.
hais, i feel so angry.
but the most i would do is mutter
vulgarities to myself and then cry
when its too much to handle.
im hopeless. yeah, whatever.
okay, my mom is being a toot.
nurul.
yesterday was like fun lah.
it was qilah's birthday.
i didnt realise how much i miss the
people until yesterday. haha.
we took nice pictures but im like
lazy to upload the photos.
when im free uh ehh. =p
oh man.
the jerk was being an asshole today.
FUCK YOU SIAL.
hais, i feel so angry.
but the most i would do is mutter
vulgarities to myself and then cry
when its too much to handle.
im hopeless. yeah, whatever.
okay, my mom is being a toot.
nurul.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
godddd, im so bored.
went to honey's home yesterday.
haha. we messed with the drums and guitar.
he was cute as always lah.
he played a song and we sang together.
i feel like shit today.
throat hurts so bad. fuck uh.
im hungry but cannot eat.
i want to go out but im lazy.
okay.
even strawberry lollipop did not make me feel better.
nurul.
went to honey's home yesterday.
haha. we messed with the drums and guitar.
he was cute as always lah.
he played a song and we sang together.
i feel like shit today.
throat hurts so bad. fuck uh.
im hungry but cannot eat.
i want to go out but im lazy.
okay.
even strawberry lollipop did not make me feel better.
nurul.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WORLD!
haha. yesterday was super cute! =)
went to meet him and his friends.
then visit his friend's grandfather's funeral.
then we sweet escape. haha.
we ate and all. everything was so cutelah.
he kept messing my hair, heh.
and he look so adorable when he slept in the
bus. *sighs* heh.
miss him like befugugjksdhuduigvajls uhh haha.
okayyyyy, see youuuuuu!
tell me what i'm suppose to do, im falling for you.
nurul.
haha. yesterday was super cute! =)
went to meet him and his friends.
then visit his friend's grandfather's funeral.
then we sweet escape. haha.
we ate and all. everything was so cutelah.
he kept messing my hair, heh.
and he look so adorable when he slept in the
bus. *sighs* heh.
miss him like befugugjksdhuduigvajls uhh haha.
okayyyyy, see youuuuuu!
tell me what i'm suppose to do, im falling for you.
nurul.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
hello.
he was sweet in the morning lah. haha.
he said dot dot dot and asked me to
do well for my exams.
and yeah. it sort of gave me something
to hold on to. =)
aiyah. and i was supposed to meet him but
my mom wanted me to follow her do sth.
so yeah. grr uhh. haha. kay, im bored.
i read qilah's blog just now and it was hilarious.
cracked up like alot of times. haha.
okayyy, i'm off.
i woke up to sunny skies of baby blue.
nurul.
he was sweet in the morning lah. haha.
he said dot dot dot and asked me to
do well for my exams.
and yeah. it sort of gave me something
to hold on to. =)
aiyah. and i was supposed to meet him but
my mom wanted me to follow her do sth.
so yeah. grr uhh. haha. kay, im bored.
i read qilah's blog just now and it was hilarious.
cracked up like alot of times. haha.
okayyy, i'm off.
i woke up to sunny skies of baby blue.
nurul.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
haha, okay. mad.
im happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
heeeeeehawwww.
that person was like super cute lah yesterday.
i wrote 'to tell or not to tell' as my pm.
and dot dot dot.
thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn,
he likes me. yeah, haha.
okayyyyyyyyy, im soooooo HAPPY.
dah dah dah, stop. i'll go crazy.
you're the one smiling more ah. happy only someone. haha.
nurul.
haha, okay. mad.
im happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
heeeeeehawwww.
that person was like super cute lah yesterday.
i wrote 'to tell or not to tell' as my pm.
and dot dot dot.
thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn,
he likes me. yeah, haha.
okayyyyyyyyy, im soooooo HAPPY.
dah dah dah, stop. i'll go crazy.
you're the one smiling more ah. happy only someone. haha.
nurul.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
helloooooooooooooooooooo.
i feel so i don't know?
haha, okay.
that person made me happy by telling me that
person miss me. heh.
and then this jerk have to spoil everything.
bitch hole. i never even do anything lah.
i take back my words uh.
IT IS YOUR FAULT JACKASS. I DO BLAME YOU.
AND I DON'T THINK I CARE ANYMORE. SIAL.
you're so hateful. do you know that?
nurul.
i feel so i don't know?
haha, okay.
that person made me happy by telling me that
person miss me. heh.
and then this jerk have to spoil everything.
bitch hole. i never even do anything lah.
i take back my words uh.
IT IS YOUR FAULT JACKASS. I DO BLAME YOU.
AND I DON'T THINK I CARE ANYMORE. SIAL.
you're so hateful. do you know that?
nurul.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
im sorry if my previous posts have not made sense.
heh. just confused with life.
but wise people around me kept telling me that i
should just lay back and see what happens.
yeah, i know i should. =)
oh oh oh! that person asked me out again!
now i dont know whether to follow or not to.
cossssss got o'levels seh. i must study.
sooooooooooooooo, i dont know. grr.
heh, okay.
i had tangles in my hair. but you made me feel so pretty. =)
nurul.
heh. just confused with life.
but wise people around me kept telling me that i
should just lay back and see what happens.
yeah, i know i should. =)
oh oh oh! that person asked me out again!
now i dont know whether to follow or not to.
cossssss got o'levels seh. i must study.
sooooooooooooooo, i dont know. grr.
heh, okay.
i had tangles in my hair. but you made me feel so pretty. =)
nurul.
Friday, October 19, 2007
hello.
um, hi.
err, i feel ummmmmmm. like aiyah neminds.
i've been feeling like shit this past few days.
cried until cannot cry anymore.
been sitting and crying and walking and crying like mad.
haha. stupid bitch. i hate myself.
then this friend of mine asked me out. =)
i didn't want to go sorta. well, i want to but i feel guilty.
but i did went. aaaand that person made my day lah sia.
the friends were disturbing and it was all cute.
i went home skipping and screaming on the phone. mad. haha.
anyway, i came late and that person told me we going to watch a m18 movie.
then i was like, you should have told me then i wouldn't come.
then that person was like, nevermind lah. just follow.
haha. then we went in the cinema.
my, the movie was like showing all those naked things.
it was like watching porn dammit.
i was uncomfortable and that person can sense that. heh.
that person was like, you're okay with it right? hahaha.
everything was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!
if i didn't go out, i would have cried again.
so yeah. thank you alooooooot that person. =)
i don't blame you. it's not your fault.
just to let you know, i still do love you. =)
nurul.
um, hi.
err, i feel ummmmmmm. like aiyah neminds.
i've been feeling like shit this past few days.
cried until cannot cry anymore.
been sitting and crying and walking and crying like mad.
haha. stupid bitch. i hate myself.
then this friend of mine asked me out. =)
i didn't want to go sorta. well, i want to but i feel guilty.
but i did went. aaaand that person made my day lah sia.
the friends were disturbing and it was all cute.
i went home skipping and screaming on the phone. mad. haha.
anyway, i came late and that person told me we going to watch a m18 movie.
then i was like, you should have told me then i wouldn't come.
then that person was like, nevermind lah. just follow.
haha. then we went in the cinema.
my, the movie was like showing all those naked things.
it was like watching porn dammit.
i was uncomfortable and that person can sense that. heh.
that person was like, you're okay with it right? hahaha.
everything was sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!
if i didn't go out, i would have cried again.
so yeah. thank you alooooooot that person. =)
i don't blame you. it's not your fault.
just to let you know, i still do love you. =)
nurul.
Monday, October 08, 2007
hellohello.
met qilah after school with my brother.
i was supposed to teach qilah maths but we
lepak at carpark awhile.
heh. then my brother went home.
so we sit at one place and i taught qilah maths.
we both were sorta high at that time. haha.
but i still can think uhh. hurlamak. haha.
then we met hilya.
while we were walking towards the mrt,
qilah and i started talking crap and all. haha.
hilya was sorta irritated, i can tell.
we continued being high until we reached tamp mrt. haha.
we all sorta can't stop giggling and laughing.
it was funny and in the mrt qilah was like,
"make a straight face,".
then i looked at her, and we giggled.
my, what a giggly day!
nurul.
met qilah after school with my brother.
i was supposed to teach qilah maths but we
lepak at carpark awhile.
heh. then my brother went home.
so we sit at one place and i taught qilah maths.
we both were sorta high at that time. haha.
but i still can think uhh. hurlamak. haha.
then we met hilya.
while we were walking towards the mrt,
qilah and i started talking crap and all. haha.
hilya was sorta irritated, i can tell.
we continued being high until we reached tamp mrt. haha.
we all sorta can't stop giggling and laughing.
it was funny and in the mrt qilah was like,
"make a straight face,".
then i looked at her, and we giggled.
my, what a giggly day!
nurul.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
heyheyhey!
it's been a long time since i blogged. heh.
anyway, i read back my whole blog.
haha. some of my posts were funny.
and some memories are just so sweet.
too sweet to even last. =)
it's funny how people change from time to time.
change for the good or change to the worse.
it was fun while it lasted and i just miss the old you. =)
it's almost a year when everything happened. haha.
mom had been supportive and so are my close friends.
yeahhh. and anyway, i have moved on. things are better.
and someone looks cuter everyday. haha. =p
i just have to concentrate on getting good grades for my o'levels and then this things can be thought about again. =)
okayyy, i have to take a bath.
hilya's coming. =)
this heart, it beats, beats for only you. =)
nurul.
it's been a long time since i blogged. heh.
anyway, i read back my whole blog.
haha. some of my posts were funny.
and some memories are just so sweet.
too sweet to even last. =)
it's funny how people change from time to time.
change for the good or change to the worse.
it was fun while it lasted and i just miss the old you. =)
it's almost a year when everything happened. haha.
mom had been supportive and so are my close friends.
yeahhh. and anyway, i have moved on. things are better.
and someone looks cuter everyday. haha. =p
i just have to concentrate on getting good grades for my o'levels and then this things can be thought about again. =)
okayyy, i have to take a bath.
hilya's coming. =)
this heart, it beats, beats for only you. =)
nurul.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Monday, July 02, 2007
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Friday, June 22, 2007
hellohello.
i just finished watching "dont say a word".
it was an okay movie.
anyway, went out with the girls just now.
we went to the esplanade and walked ard marina square.
it was fun. =)
we didn't camwhore though.
we should have lah. tsk, wasted seh.
okay.
"how i met your mother" is on tv now.
i want to watch it. the show is like damn hilarious lah.
staring at the glass infront of me, is it half empty?nurul.
i just finished watching "dont say a word".
it was an okay movie.
anyway, went out with the girls just now.
we went to the esplanade and walked ard marina square.
it was fun. =)
we didn't camwhore though.
we should have lah. tsk, wasted seh.
okay.
"how i met your mother" is on tv now.
i want to watch it. the show is like damn hilarious lah.
staring at the glass infront of me, is it half empty?nurul.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
wth lah.
i've been crying for awhile now. haha.
grr. i feel so shitty.
F everything lah.
anyway, i offered to clear up my cous's emails.
he has over a thousand unread emails.
and since i have nothing to do, i'll clear them up.
some emails of his are damn hilarious lah.
there's one where you are suppose to find a pair of shoes in the picture.
but my cous and i were too scared too find the shoes cos the pic looks eerie.
we screamed and closed our eyes instead. haha. stupid, i know.
i am finishing soon. hah.
~
I can see it in your eyes.
You're broken down; your hands are tied.
I can feel it in my side.
Over and over and over I've tried.
i close my eyes and i can see you dead.
nurul.
i've been crying for awhile now. haha.
grr. i feel so shitty.
F everything lah.
anyway, i offered to clear up my cous's emails.
he has over a thousand unread emails.
and since i have nothing to do, i'll clear them up.
some emails of his are damn hilarious lah.
there's one where you are suppose to find a pair of shoes in the picture.
but my cous and i were too scared too find the shoes cos the pic looks eerie.
we screamed and closed our eyes instead. haha. stupid, i know.
i am finishing soon. hah.
~
I can see it in your eyes.
You're broken down; your hands are tied.
I can feel it in my side.
Over and over and over I've tried.
i close my eyes and i can see you dead.
nurul.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Saturday, June 16, 2007
hello.
my family is celebrating father's day today with my cousins.
everyone's preparing food and performance to show off their talents.
haha. i know it's not a big deal.
but im quite nervous right now. heh.
yeahh, whatever.
ahh. starcrossed by ash is playing on my playlist.
'it's truuuuuuuuue. you know that i'd die for yooooooooooooou'
heh. cute sey. =)
okay, my mom is noisy.
i am yours whenever you need me. =)
nurul.
my family is celebrating father's day today with my cousins.
everyone's preparing food and performance to show off their talents.
haha. i know it's not a big deal.
but im quite nervous right now. heh.
yeahh, whatever.
ahh. starcrossed by ash is playing on my playlist.
'it's truuuuuuuuue. you know that i'd die for yooooooooooooou'
heh. cute sey. =)
okay, my mom is noisy.
i am yours whenever you need me. =)
nurul.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
went to macs with mom and izza yesterday.
mom bought honeydew milkshake and ask me to drink it.
i took a few sips.
and when we reached home, i feel like throwing up.
since i hate the idea of throwing up, i drank a glass of plain water.
i felt better after that.
but i woke up in the morning and i threw up.
hahahaha. den my mom forced me to drink this berry essence.
and now im so tired and hungry.
but i cant eat.
and i have tuition at 1 later. ahh.
okay.
i am breathing in the moment.
nurul.
mom bought honeydew milkshake and ask me to drink it.
i took a few sips.
and when we reached home, i feel like throwing up.
since i hate the idea of throwing up, i drank a glass of plain water.
i felt better after that.
but i woke up in the morning and i threw up.
hahahaha. den my mom forced me to drink this berry essence.
and now im so tired and hungry.
but i cant eat.
and i have tuition at 1 later. ahh.
okay.
i am breathing in the moment.
nurul.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
lalala. im bored.
my cousin is coming.
am i suppose to be happy?
okay. yeay.
haiya. i feel like shit.
my body is still aching.
though my head doesnt hurt that bad.
my throat is still sore.
oh my, im hungry.
but the sight of food makes me want to throw up.
ugh, whatever.
oh. i watched the repeat telecast of american idol where JORDIN SPARKS won.
maaaan. she's DAMN good lah.
when she won, and while she was singing her song, i teared!
ahh! this is the first american idol where i teared when the winner won! haha.
~
This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment
Cuz I look around
I can't believe the love I see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.
'this is my now - jordin sparks'
okay.
i am made of more than my yesterdays.
nurul.
my cousin is coming.
am i suppose to be happy?
okay. yeay.
haiya. i feel like shit.
my body is still aching.
though my head doesnt hurt that bad.
my throat is still sore.
oh my, im hungry.
but the sight of food makes me want to throw up.
ugh, whatever.
oh. i watched the repeat telecast of american idol where JORDIN SPARKS won.
maaaan. she's DAMN good lah.
when she won, and while she was singing her song, i teared!
ahh! this is the first american idol where i teared when the winner won! haha.
~
This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment
Cuz I look around
I can't believe the love I see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.
'this is my now - jordin sparks'
okay.
i am made of more than my yesterdays.
nurul.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
ahhhh! fuck! fuck everything i tell you!
i feel so shitty today.
my whole body is aching.
my head hurts.
my throat is sore.
and he said, go for it. BLW.
haha. as if lah.
~
Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge.
i'm bored. the song is 'radio by alkaline trio' btw. heh. =p
okay.
this kettle is seeing red.
nurul.
i feel so shitty today.
my whole body is aching.
my head hurts.
my throat is sore.
and he said, go for it. BLW.
haha. as if lah.
~
Shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades,
waking up next to nothing after dreaming of you and me
I'm waking up all alone, waking up so relieved
while you're taking your time with apologies,
I'm making my plans for revenge
Red eyes on orange horizons
If Columbus was wrong I'd drive straight off the edge
I'd drive straight off the edge.
i'm bored. the song is 'radio by alkaline trio' btw. heh. =p
okay.
this kettle is seeing red.
nurul.
Monday, June 11, 2007
hello people! im baaack on demand!
hahahaha.
okay. im bored.
my whole body is aching lah.
in the morning my mom woke me with a tap on my feet.
and guess what. it hurts. hahaha.
it's only a tap lah.
hais. i know i should be studying.
but im lazy. and i have tuition at 5 later.
ahh. tired lah.
i feel like eating all those rich filling stuff.
like cream cakes.
or an ice cream sundae with a lot of whipped cream.
yeah, those stuffs.
~
Dear Jamie, I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the ends.
oh my. im liking that song lah.
it's called 'dear jamie...sincerely me by hellogoodbye'
okay.
but should i trust the postage due, to deliver my heart to you?
nurul.
hahahaha.
okay. im bored.
my whole body is aching lah.
in the morning my mom woke me with a tap on my feet.
and guess what. it hurts. hahaha.
it's only a tap lah.
hais. i know i should be studying.
but im lazy. and i have tuition at 5 later.
ahh. tired lah.
i feel like eating all those rich filling stuff.
like cream cakes.
or an ice cream sundae with a lot of whipped cream.
yeah, those stuffs.
~
Dear Jamie, I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the ends.
oh my. im liking that song lah.
it's called 'dear jamie...sincerely me by hellogoodbye'
okay.
but should i trust the postage due, to deliver my heart to you?
nurul.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Thursday, February 15, 2007
hello!
i've got d song 'the distance' by evan and jaron already.
hee. a nice fren sent it to me. thank you! =)
oh ya! it was valentine's day yest.
everywhere u go u see couples with flowers.
haha. funny sey.
anywae, met him yest.
he was super adorable as usual. hee.
and he did sth i nvr thot he would.
haha. so cute lor. =)
oh ya. im going jamming tomorrow.
faiz said maybe we performing. MAYBE.
im scared lah. i dowan to perform. hehe.
alah. i see how. =P
i never thought you would. hee. =)
nurul.
i've got d song 'the distance' by evan and jaron already.
hee. a nice fren sent it to me. thank you! =)
oh ya! it was valentine's day yest.
everywhere u go u see couples with flowers.
haha. funny sey.
anywae, met him yest.
he was super adorable as usual. hee.
and he did sth i nvr thot he would.
haha. so cute lor. =)
oh ya. im going jamming tomorrow.
faiz said maybe we performing. MAYBE.
im scared lah. i dowan to perform. hehe.
alah. i see how. =P
i never thought you would. hee. =)
nurul.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
yesterday was super cute!
everything!
hee.
okay.
yest was my birthday, my class sang a birthday song.
and den i kept receiving smses wishing me happy birthday.
den jessica and susu gave me a pacifier and baby's pillow.
so cute! haha. i feel like baby sia when im supposed to feel 16!
den during lunch, some people from my class get to eat the birthday cake nads and hilya brought.
we sang the birthday song, i made a wish and blew the candles and cut the cake!
hee. i felt so happy sey. =)
den after sch, i met him.
he gave me a bouquet of flowers.
haha. so cute you noe!
den we just walked ard and talk.
every passerby will stare at us and the flowers when they passed us.
haha. i felt paiseh but very cute lah.
i had a sweet and simple sixteen!
hee.
i love you.
nurul.
everything!
hee.
okay.
yest was my birthday, my class sang a birthday song.
and den i kept receiving smses wishing me happy birthday.
den jessica and susu gave me a pacifier and baby's pillow.
so cute! haha. i feel like baby sia when im supposed to feel 16!
den during lunch, some people from my class get to eat the birthday cake nads and hilya brought.
we sang the birthday song, i made a wish and blew the candles and cut the cake!
hee. i felt so happy sey. =)
den after sch, i met him.
he gave me a bouquet of flowers.
haha. so cute you noe!
den we just walked ard and talk.
every passerby will stare at us and the flowers when they passed us.
haha. i felt paiseh but very cute lah.
i had a sweet and simple sixteen!
hee.
i love you.
nurul.
Monday, February 05, 2007
i am listening to 'the distance' by evan and jaron.
hais.
anyone kind enough to gimme d song?
i dono how to download la.
asswipe betol.
tsk.
okay.
im PMS-ing.
haha.
oh ya.
nads gimme a power ranger song.
den i put it as my msg tone.
den just now, as i was walking home, i received a msg.
den the song played.
everyone ard me stared.
hahaha.
funny la sia.
okay.
bye.
the sky has lost it's colour.
nurul.
hais.
anyone kind enough to gimme d song?
i dono how to download la.
asswipe betol.
tsk.
okay.
im PMS-ing.
haha.
oh ya.
nads gimme a power ranger song.
den i put it as my msg tone.
den just now, as i was walking home, i received a msg.
den the song played.
everyone ard me stared.
hahaha.
funny la sia.
okay.
bye.
the sky has lost it's colour.
nurul.
Monday, January 15, 2007
hello people!
so long i never update sia!
today is my aunt's birthday.
so just now me, hilya, and nad sang "happy birthday" to my aunt on the phone.
den my aunt was touched.
haha.
so cute la she.
oh ya!
just now i went out with izza to buy my mom a piece of cake and a stalk of red rose for her birthday(which was yesterday).
den i saw this man who have just gotten back from work, bought a bouquet of pink roses and baby's breathe from the florist.
i think they are for his wife. hee.
so cute!
hais.
i wish HE would give me a stalk of red rose for no reason.
so cute sey..
it doesn't cost much anyway.
just $1.50 a stalk.
=)
haiya. okay. whatever eh nurul. =P
what a beautiful smile. can it stay for awhile.
nurul.
so long i never update sia!
today is my aunt's birthday.
so just now me, hilya, and nad sang "happy birthday" to my aunt on the phone.
den my aunt was touched.
haha.
so cute la she.
oh ya!
just now i went out with izza to buy my mom a piece of cake and a stalk of red rose for her birthday(which was yesterday).
den i saw this man who have just gotten back from work, bought a bouquet of pink roses and baby's breathe from the florist.
i think they are for his wife. hee.
so cute!
hais.
i wish HE would give me a stalk of red rose for no reason.
so cute sey..
it doesn't cost much anyway.
just $1.50 a stalk.
=)
haiya. okay. whatever eh nurul. =P
what a beautiful smile. can it stay for awhile.
nurul.
Monday, January 08, 2007
hello hello.
yesterday, me and hilya went to our cous's wedding.
den we have to walk behind the bride and groom.
den the coolest thing is, the groom is the founder of the Santa Fe club.
so, when we walk, there's a whole stretch of Santa Fe cars trailing behind us.
so cool right??
hehe.
then after the wedding, me, hilya and nads go to the heeren and we went home.
yaaaa.
tt's about all.
oh ya.
coralites have the priviledge to come at ard 8.15am every mon.
so cool kan?
hehe.
okay la.
u don't know how lovely you are.
nurul.
Monday, January 01, 2007
hello!
happy new year pple!
went to watch fireworks just now.
the fireworks were gorgeous.
but it was so crammed sey at the esplanade just now.
i almost cant breathe.
and d most funny thing happened.
a guy tried to push my bro forward using his private part.
god. how pervetic can he get??
den my bro turn ard and stared at him.
but tt stupid guy kept repeating his action.
so my bro slammed tt guy's private part using his butt.
hahaha. so damn funny sey.
oh ya.
on saturday night, i met ice.
hee.
my parents asked me to sleep at my grandma's house cos she's alone.
then i meet ice awhile at d park.
he was so adorable sey.
=)
woke up this morning with this feeling inside me that i can't explain. =)
nurul.
happy new year pple!
went to watch fireworks just now.
the fireworks were gorgeous.
but it was so crammed sey at the esplanade just now.
i almost cant breathe.
and d most funny thing happened.
a guy tried to push my bro forward using his private part.
god. how pervetic can he get??
den my bro turn ard and stared at him.
but tt stupid guy kept repeating his action.
so my bro slammed tt guy's private part using his butt.
hahaha. so damn funny sey.
oh ya.
on saturday night, i met ice.
hee.
my parents asked me to sleep at my grandma's house cos she's alone.
then i meet ice awhile at d park.
he was so adorable sey.
=)
woke up this morning with this feeling inside me that i can't explain. =)
nurul.
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